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My Biggest Fear

Last week I disclosed that fears often hold me back from achieving my dreams. I also expressed my interest in tackling my dreams without regard to fear. I am going to start talking about and expressing my biggest fear now so as to rally as much support as possible! In one month from today I will be celebrating my completion of the marathon. I am guessing I will still be on cloud nine two days after the marathon but my fear is that I will forget to encapsulate the amazing accomplishment and lose my drive.

This song kind of mirrors my fear of losing running:



Being a person who struggled with finding the 'right' thing I recognize that losing running, because of the pure joy it provides me, is my biggest fear. I find hilarity in the fact that I have already decided I am going to run another marathon (or two) next year seeing as a 10k was only in my sights for the first time two years ago; however I am the queen of the exercise sabbatical. This is the year that I am going to retire exercise sabbaticals with the support of my readers and friends. I need to shed myself of the fear that I am not 'meant' to be a runner.

I am sitting here listening to Home by Edward Sharp and the Magnetic Zeros. Without going into too many details I can say there are certain people, places, animals and things that I can substitute for 'you' in the song that make me feel at home; running is one of those things! Please tell me to read my blog if you see me slipping...

Here is the song for your listening pleasure:


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